I had fun with odac west at loh's house today =D It isnt bad to chill out liddat once in a while. Missed them already... Been browsing through some old photos and I realised....

Through the passage of time, where has all the innocence gone to? The vibrance in the eyes slowly dimmed to be replaced by wariness, and fatigue creeped into our souls. Lines etched deeply into the face showed the revolution of age, and why doesnt our laughter seem as bright as before? Knowledge painfully weighed us down, slowly but surely tearing off our innocence. The burden of adults had caught up. A realization that came when I am soon to hit the twenties this year...

I really need to exercise more. Feeling more and more inferior, due to school and stuff? Why couldnt I have some drive to improve myself? No matter how I tried to work up some motivation in me, it would all diminish in a short period of time... I really need some time to myself... and away from the mangas online... Mangas are just a way for escaping from reality. Self esteem? Sadly, I am lacking in that. A facade, thats what I put on so as to escape from the weak me.

I wonder how dad is doing.... terrifying, for it seems I had lost that feeling.