It's hard. What makes a good leader? I wonder. I do not think I could take up this role. Feels so chui now. Sighs. My self esteem and confidence are all drooping low, not that they are anywhere high to begin with. But now they are kinda dangerously low. Sucks. POSITIVE THINKING!! I need to switch my thinking, fast!

When the wind changes,
what would it bring?
A new beginning?
More trials?

Ideas ideas, my brain juices are leeched off. So looking forward to the weekends. Could finally chill out in the arms of my nakama. Odac and Cfcs alike.