I think that the scariest and the saddest patients that doctors faced are not those with uncurable diseases, nor are they those who are on the brink of death... they are the people who has no willpower to live on, to fight on... people who are slowly withering away..

It is depressing to hear words like "finished, going to die, cannot make it" be it any language.. Dont know what is wrong since all G did was moan and mumble and sit and sleep... giving a blur face when he wakes... dunno if he got dementia or not... but heard that he is damn active yesterday and thus, the mood difference is really big. Heard that G got tied down to the bed yesterday night for keep trying to get down the bed when he has no strength to walk...

Hope that he would get well and stop having these negative thoughts.. and stop repeating that he wan to die...we r suspecting that he got depression but who knows? It is kind of funny yet scary to hear the other relatives suspecting if there are any 'spirits' that are around or so.. hmm... but his actions kinda resemble a kid in a way... so... what is the problem exactly? Sighs.. Contradicting statements, contradicting images, contradictions are everywhere.....

I think I am kind of cold feeling or is it that I dun believe that he will 'die' like he say, such that I dun take those words that he mumble out seriously? But they say old people has great intuition? I do not know... I guess.. I am just unfeeling...