Roughly around this period... one year ago.. I had just embarked on a journey to Dalian. The trip that started out with a little excitement and massive uncertainties, yet is one which left a deep impression in my heart, left a mark in my life... A journey which lets me understand and really know a few awesome friends, though from different classes yet, I believe I would keep in contact with down the years..

Even though I had not QQ with the china people for about more than half a year now, yet, they are the ones who has changed my outlook on some matters, they who taught me so many values; determination, loyalty, passion.. and sometimes, through them, I felt.. envy. Envy for them chasing their dreams, for them doing what they loved, or just having something that they could follow on... Just a small dream, or even a small passion, that's what make me felt so lacking...

Just thinking about it, memories just keep flooding back in and what's amazing is that they still feel so fresh in the mind. Yet, I know.. that it has been one year. A time of freedom and joy, a time with not a care in the world... a time of precious htht almost everyday... a time of understanding and emotions... and that is a time that will always remain inaccessible....

Just 1 year, and so many things had changed... so many stuff had happened and sometimes, what ifs and can it bes emerge... yet those are just wishful thinking...

What hurts most is not the memories but the knowledge that we could never step back into the footsteps of those happy days... regardless how recently or far back it has been...