Monday, April 9, 2012
I do not know if I had made a wise choice in coming here to study... I guess that it is too soon to know... And now I begin questioning myself again... Am I really going to do architecture in the future? Simply why? Cause I actually miss designing, doing all those stuff done in creative media design. Yes I am fickle-minded. My mind and preferences keep on changing and this me, I hate it.
Yet... its still too soon to know... All I can do now, is try my best here. Since so much money and effort and time has already gone into this course, I must do my best. But in my leisure time, I could think about all these stuff right? I am allowed to dream of setting up a business, or just using my time to do all these designing stuff? Feel melancholy all of a sudden again... =(
I tend to live in the past... which is bad I know... but looking through those photos, I suddenly miss my friends... and weirdly, I do not really miss my family... and that is saying a lot right? How in the world did I become like this? I guess I need to do a lot of soul searching yet... sometimes, feelings and emotions are just so... oh complicated... Damnation. Or perhaps its my upbringing? I am so clueless as to why I am like that... but one person I know I really miss a lot.. the best grandparent in the world, my grandma =)
Suddenly feel like isolating myself again... Now I get why M feel so sianz about going out and stuff.... Sometimes, you just feel like being with your own lonesome self...
11:13 AM
