Sometimes, there are too many feelings bottled up with no outlet... being overseas studying... I guess it can really get lonely... sometimes its just so hard to find the one person that you know that will listen to you and yet, not leak anything out...

Really, landscape due to it being such an unpopulated course, can get tedious, especially in the later semesters.. In a way, I kind of dread it... Yet, I should grow to be more independent... Cause the other landscapers, some of them are already married with kids and all, sometimes, it is just so hard to find someone to discuss the assignments with... I should just attempt to try and solve everything myself and stuff like that? It is not that they are not helpful, in fact, they are really helpful but... I just wish that I could find a person who is like some of my friends back in singapore in landscape..sighs.. I guess it will really escalate in the later semesters and years... I just hope that the toil it took on me would not be too much...

But surely, Im enjoying the new aspects of the course, learning something new is always fun.. and I hope to meet more new people... diversity is always good, but sometimes, I kinda feel that I am stuck in the same whirlpool, attempting to get free but cant...

Somehow, I kinda miss my friends back in Singapore... I guess it is just natural to miss part of one's old life since that life is actually good. Oh well, take one step as it goes... I will make it, I believe. Do my best. Suck it up. This is the choice that I had made, the step that I had taken, I could only go along with it and tried to get rid of the obstacles by myself. Anyways, life is all about your own choices and roads that you chose to undertake... Outside influences could appear, yet, everything still depends on yourself, how strong your heart or determination is, unless its really unstoppable situations...