In an unexpected way, I heard a life story that made me feel that I am so lucky. In another way, it inspired me too. Suddenly, this thinking flashed through my mind that made it all the more personal.. 'I do not care what others think of me and their perception of my friendships and stuff... It all became so trivial in my mind, so minor that it does not really affect me anymore.. They can tease or think all they want, but as long as I know that it is not true, I should not try so hard to defend myself..' I really feel that I have friends that really trusted me and that really, friends that think you matter to them will really try and keep in contact with you... In just less than an hour, my thinking suddenly changed. My determination increased too. Everything suddenly seemed so trivial to working hard and succeed in life...

It may only be in this period.. like this few minutes, everything may go back to the way it is in a few hours after I slept, but I have never felt as determined nor alive as this moment about my way of thinking. I experienced something indescribable that may never occur again in my life. Yet, it gave me a sense of new outlook of life, another perception. It is really invaluable. I hope that I could continue it and applied through my work, reducing procrastination and increasing determination.

16th Sept, 3:57am, a feeling I should never ever forget and should be utilized throughout my life...
Hopefully it will last...