Just a matter of time.. So many insecurities, so much worry, 'comfort zone', an area which one just has to step out in order to grow, no matter in which area of life.... Been lucky to have met a few people that helped me get into an internship that would enable me to grow more knowledgeable... I would treasure this internship really.. hoped I would not screw this up!

Been thinking a lot these few days.. I am on the verge of forsaking one for the other actually... It is just too taxing on the heart... Anyways, after re-reading hikaru no go, I really really want to find someone that I could admire and chase after, a goal that I could follow such that I could grow and be on par with that someone's standard.... Or to strive beyond. Up till now, I still have not met that 'someone'.. I despair if I could really meet someone that I would want to chase after to such a point... (At least some of them chase after star idols and stuff, but I haven met anyone that I admire so much yet...) =(