Here I am, 3 years later, eating a sushi roll in hotel after missing my flight back home...Haha quite an interesting way to put a close to this chapter in my life. And so it begins... my last day of very free freedom and back to the 'caged and coddled life back in Singapore', that hectic lifestyle...

At first, I thought it will be pretty funny when I could arrive back home earlier to welcome them, even though it's a bit sad. But now, it seems like they will be there welcoming me back home to Singapore, but staying alone in a hotel in Melbourne is also a bit sad... Cant have it both ways I guess, and well just enjoy this alone time haha. Who knows when I will really have some alone alone time anymore... =(

Family, I am really grateful for them and I enjoyed them very much but there is just something about family that could just fray all your nerves and make you feel like that little kid 10 years ago... But nevertheless, I had much fun with my cousins, especially making them drunk and getting them to spill all their love stories :P.

It has been so long since my family went on an overseas trip together, at least 10 years I reckon. It is really good to have them back together though, even if its for a short while... It has been so long since I heard the banter between my dad and mum, the hilarious childish arguments between dad and the family... Seriously, haha the age where they got their driver's license also want to compete with mum... And my mum keep saying that my dad is at his mid life crisis, thus can be forgiven is just so funny. It's good to know that I can still make them laugh and that has already become my goal in life. Well, I guess I just hope dad will be back more often... at least for those festivals I guess...

Sensing my sis crying while trying to tell me to at least open or talk to my brother like we are not strangers is actually getting to me. I guess as I grow older, I am more neutral towards him even though I still don't like his way of thinking and speech.... But I guess I should at least treat him like how I treat my cousins? Maybe. I need to really cross the barrier in my own heart first I guess...

Oh well, since I am so super duper free now, I guess I should just sum up the whole of 2014 and perhaps these three years of uni life. When I first decided to go overseas to study, I had no idea what to expect, only that I really wanted to experience studying overseas, and for my parents to allow and sent me out, I am forever grateful to them for this is something that I would never regret. The experience I had, the lessons that i learnt, are all something that could never be achieved back in Singapore. I remember those nights of loneliness and homesickness (oh well, not so much of that) but yea, food sickness, definitely made me become a much more independent person. And the most important thing is, the taste of freedom. This is the first time I have been truly free, away from obligations, away from restrictions, away from expectations and all. Even though I feel that this course is still a waste of time, I gained some valuable life lessons and valuable friends for life. I am lucky, really lucky to have met such great friends and really close friends that I could share my stuff with. That in itself, is hard. Sometimes, I wonder what have I done to actually deserve all these. I am not a sociable sociable person by far, pretty much awkward socially.. I am not really that funny and nice really, I have lots of shortcomings that I need to reflect on, an introvert really. And that makes me really treasure all these bonds (new and old) that I want to further strengthen them. They say it takes years to build respect and trust and just one second to break it. I hope it will never come to that... For that will break my heart truly, in any of these relationships that I treasured deeply. Forever thankful to A, C, D, J, M, N and S, some of my favourite people in my life. =)

2014 has been a very happening year for me that probably cause my emotions to fluctuate lots... Is it because its the horse year? ;) Horses rock!! hahaha But yea.. 1) I let go fully of a complicated r/s but lost a really good friend (hopefully temporary loss), 2) was really creeped out by someone to the point of waiting for a day before I reply (that is rare for me since I always reply quite fast), 3) experienced a r/s that felt very free, relaxed and really enjoyable to the point of me grinning to myself every day.. 4) had a few big one-off arguments and patches with my little bro bro...

Living outside campus, with my lovely and wonderful housemates will undoubtedly be one of the most precious memories that I will have when I look back when I'm old. The laughter, the fun, the talks that we have, even those silent, long companionable times of just being on the bed using phone or talking crap... the events/parties that we have hosted, the exercises that we force each other to do.. the meals that we cooked and the ice creams that we ate... the photos that we spammed.. it is just sooo fun. If only it could extend for longer... but good times always end :( Ahhhh I missed them so much now!!! No doubt we will definitely meet each other again!!! But it will be long... or never.. that we can actually stayed together again..

2014 undoubtedly is one of the years that made a really great impact on me, letting me have quite a lot of personal growth as well. Just wished it could be longer. So next up, the working world I guess... After going back to Singapore, I need to shut myself in my room and really think of what I want to do.. apply for temporary graduate? Apply for jobs? Lots of things to settle and at the very least, get everything settled before Chinese New year. Maybe just give myself 2 months to rest and figure everything out.. hahaha Oh well, unknown is always the scariest but it is which that makes life interesting. I guess, I am ready to take on a new chapter in my life. And next year, woohooo one quarter of a century!! I hope it will be a good year, 2015.

Hehe and I get to renovate my room :D Definitely have to have at least two beds so that I can accommodate my friends if they come visit :P

Sighs, have to think of what to wear for cousin's wedding and then, chinese new year.. hahaha rahhrrrr I'll think about it when im back in sg =D