A 3.5 weeks holiday in Mel + Tas flew past, just like that. It is scary, the feeling that once I am back in Singapore, it feels like this trip has never happened. Perhaps, its the familiarity of things, the rhythm of a mundane life that makes this trip seems like a dream. But memories stayed. I am glad to have undertaken this trip, meeting all my friends and having lots of fun. Cause of that, I am not that opinionated about the next phase of life, instead, I am actually looking forward to it now.

Somehow, taking this trip as a holidayer makes me come to terms that I am not a student anymore. Drifting here and there during the day while others have to go to school and stuff makes me realise that I will not want to keep on having a holiday without using much of my brains. It feels like being really unproductive, and I assume humans, or me need to feel productive at some stage of time after being idle for too long.

It was really awesome being able to spend time with two of my favourite people from Tas, Curtupus and my little bro bro. Celebrating their birthdays was memorable to me as well. I feel that I have a few new outlooks of relationships and life, in general. I have also discovered sides of myself that a few years ago, I would have shrugged and scoffed at the thought of it. Pride and the accustomed original flow of thinking were kinda taken down a notch. It was a liberating, scary yet interesting experience and proof that I am still open and growing in my thinking.

I missed them a lot, but it is probably time to focus on my next phase of life. I believe in fate, but I also believe that people has to do something to make what they want happen. It will be interesting to see what happens in two years. Have a lot of two year plans and goals happening.

P.s. With every encounter, I discovered new sides to him. To continue discovering new sides means having to spend more physical presence time with him... and that is a luxury that I do not have, not at this moment of time. Two years later. Maybe. Hopefully.