First week of work, new environment, new people. Somehow... lol I clammed up a lot. But, for lunch even, everyone is just eating and not really talking... It kinda feel like the people at the office kinda just treat each other as colleagues and not really friends. I thought I will kinda make friends around my age, but I'm kinda the youngest.. and haha I guess there's many similar introverts in the office as well... atmosphere is pretty depressing :/

Hmm, 3 days and I am feeling the strain from staring at the computer all day long. But it's interesting that the first project that I am handling together with the team is an overseas project, Cambodia, which will become a milestone for the company if all goes well. A good motivator and probably a good portfolio-worthy project. Though tired and working in a kinda low-energy feel environment, I think that I can learn a lot a lot from this. But haha 2 weeks for each design stage, omg, I dread the coming weeks... probably going to be busy but I think it will be a productive week. I have a lot of stuff to learn and to brush up my skills on... Well, hope that I can at least be useful to the company...

Ahhhhh, I miss him... updating burger on my life and vice versa makes me realise that once I warm up to sharing my 'love' life with her, and started flashing one or two photos of him to her, lol it kinda just makes me want to show more and keep on telling her that he is sooo cuteeeeee... until she told me to stop... which is kinda funny. Well, she flashed hers to me first, so she started this! :P I guess it makes me realise that I really do miss him a lot and lol sharing a bit bout him actually cheer me up a lot. Hmmmm shit I have fallen... lol my words from my earlier days come and slappppp me back in my face... once again.

Hearing about how burger got into a car accident and nearly die! (just a few seconds may mean death for her!) and her 'last thought' if she died makes me contemplate about the fragility of life once again and think what my regret will be if my time is suddenly up.. and well, there will be a lot of minor regrets here and there but the strongest one in my mind is actually not giving all of myself to the guy that I really like.. That makes me contemplate about my stand yet once again. haha.. can literally see cracks on my mental wall.

Anyway, I guess I will endure till the time (at least 1.5 years haha omg) I will be back on the same continent for long and see how it goes I guess.. if we are still on mutual page... for now, I will just focus on work since I kinda lost interest in other guys lol.. heart is taken. Not that I have much interest in the first place :P (I cant believe my cousin wants to set me up for a blind date with her friend!!! Lame... )

Anyway after reading more and kinda interacting with real life work, my interest has gone into reviving dying city centers through landscape architecture... which kinda starts me thinking about taking masters in landscape architecture or urban design. But probs has to take a loan lol though I should be able to save up for the living expenses. haha 18k for living expenses and rent for 3 years in Tassie... I reckon it would be roughly that much for 2 years in mel or western australia. Probably will be able to save up that much in 1.5 years. Hehs. Well, seems like a plan anyway for now. =)