The emotions that hit once you are back in Singapore after being overseas, the comparison of work life balance, the lost-ness feels, that feeling of being neither here nor there is all too familiar. It's nearly a year since I am back, and I am still lost. Stuck between two worlds but belonging to neither, really. A complex yet undeniable feeling. 

One year later, target: Perth. Master of Landscape Architecture. 

Setting goals are a way of occupying myself I guess, such that the longing does not come out too much. Anyways, this is a path I chose, and I will see it to the end. As long as I put my best in, I guess if it did work out or not, I will have no regrets. Though it is a tough and hurtful path that I have put myself in, not that I could help it anyways.. I mean, I guess it will be sweeter and we will probably not take it for granted if we are able to withstand these tough times, but if not, then it will never survive whatever hope/future it may have... To me, it is worth it though. With him, my emotions amplify. I feel twice the joy and sorrow, twice the worry and caring. This is a rarity in my mundane life, and I am appreciative and thankful for it. I do not think that this is a frequent occurrence, and thus, I am all the more lucky and grateful to be able to experience it for as long as it will last. That is my mentality now anyways... Though I still misssssss him so damn much... 

Anyways, goals before 2017!

- Able to speak and understand Japanese!

- Do up a self-branding/alias for my hobbies in instagram/etsy etc! 

- Do up at least 10 pieces of jewellery that I am satisfied with!

- Have at least 1 achievements that I am proud of!

- Donate/sell off those old stuff that I do not need, really pack up my room! 

- Research more about playgrounds, and perhaps even design a bit of play equipment? Do up a portfolio! Target to get internship/part-time job in company in Perth that specialises in nature play! 

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